2002-04-27 - 11:26 a.m.
The past couple of days have been uneventful for the most part…
Just hanging around the house with Ivy, really. Yesterday was almost a total waste of time, but we had fun. I didn’t get dressed the entire day – we both had the day off from work, so we took advantage of that and mainly stayed naked and in bed. Ivy let me take advantage of her in ways I haven’t had a chance to in a while, and a fun time was had by all.
Ivy and I have been spending a lot of time just locked away alone in our room, and we like it that way…
After a huge fight with my mother, I haven’t really seen or heard from her in a few days. My family situation is a little strange – my wife and I live with my family because they asked us to live with them, to help take care of my mother, who is chronically ill. My mother is very hard to get along with, though, and she is always fighting with her parents and myself. Just recently she went a bit too far and I screamed back at her to stay the hell out of my life. Normally people don’t stand up to my mother, because they’re afraid to – she’s a stubborn, mean woman when she wants to be. Well, this time it seems to have shocked her because she’s respected my wishes and left me alone for the time being. We’ll see how long it lasts. I think she realizes that while she might be able to boss her parents around, Ivy and I won’t stand for it.
Living at home isn’t so bad. We’ve lived on our own for the majority of our relationship, and really, my family gives us a lot of privacy. I guess we’ll stay here as long as it is convenient, and move on when it isn’t. We may stay for a while – Ivy likes living at the house and so do I. If my mother weren’t there, and it was just my grandparents, it would be perfect. They leave us alone and let us do what we want.
Really, in all fairness, I don’t even notice the rest of my family for the most part. They leave us alone and we leave them alone. I do love and respect my grandparents a great deal. They are getting on in years, but longevity seems to run in my family and I hope to have them around for quite a few more years yet. Lord knows they have the patience to take care of my mother more than I do…
Oh well. I do my best to get along with mother… everyone does…
I’m here at work right now, writing this in between phone calls and writing up tickets. I work for a company that does IT outsourcing work for large corporations – essentially, other companies hire our company to be their IT department. Where do I fit in? I’m a system support analyst, or standard technician for lack of a better term. It lets me make good money while I finish up my college degree.
Ooo.. Ivy is redecorating the bedroom today while I’m at work. I really like our room. It is a mixture of our esoteric tastes – there are paintings by Olivia and Dali on our walls, ancient occult-themed items like demon statues and a crystal ball, empty bottles of Absinthe that we’ve imported from Spain, etc. It is dark and there is an air of mystery to it – in other words, it fits us well. Friends tell us that entering our abode is often like entering another world, and I pride myself on that. I enjoy creating a pleasant mood in my home.
My life has become somewhat normal, for me. I have a daytime job and a wife, who also has a daytime job. We spend our evenings and time off together, alone for the most part and sometimes with the few very good friends we have. My job is fulfilling and not too stressful, I see an end to college in my future… all in all, I am very pleased with life.
I am enjoying my current regimen of Zoloft, Wellbutrin, and herbs/vitamins. It is working to keep me in a fantastic mood – I think every depressed person should be able to afford these pills. Depression wasn’t my problem, but it has helped calm me down quite a bit… which was my problem – I was a hyper-paranoid type ‘A’ personality who is now a much calmer person.
Even if I wasn’t depressed, I think I would like taking these pills… with the zinc, yohimbe, ginko-biloba, etc… well… let’s just say that I REALLY like the side effects. I have spent years studying drugs and chemistry to find the perfect combinations of chemicals and exercise to produce the results I want in my body. This research is starting to help me reap vast rewards. Once you know more about prescription drugs than the doctors you go to see know, they will just write you scripts for whatever you want. This is the advantage of being educated.
In my free time, I read books and write. Ivy and I go to the gym and take long walks, or spend time in the Jacuzzi together in the backyard. Summer is here, and it looks like it is going to be a very good one. I have a few months to relax before I’m in school again. I can take that time and spend it in the gym, in the sun, etc. My friend Logicman has started to play Everquest a lot, that has helped him deal with his recent breakup, I think. I hate to spend too much time locked away in the house playing EQ during the summer months, but I have to admit that the game is a lot of fun when you can play it with friends.
Now we just need to get Ivy’s computer all hooked up and online with broadband cable access. Ah well. That’s what this year’s student loans are for!
-Kurth, aka Incandescent-
